unraveling
Posted by CliodhnaI was doing my recap today when I was thinking that doing personal work like the workshops I do in the Toltec is like unraveling a big twisted knot. You have to find an end and start there and work your way into the centre of the knot. Start with the little knots and they will give you energy (inner strength) to face the biggies when they come along. Sometimes a big one just melts away unexpectably and you have a few yards of free wool before you reach the next tangle. Patience and doing things in the proper order is called for, no point tackling a knot if there is one before it that needs to be done first.
As a mirror to this I realised a few days ago that lessons arrive as I need to learn them. It gives me a wonderful sense of freedom when I realise I don’t have to control me or my world, that all flows as it should. I wrote a big hippy post about a while ago to do with snowflakes and water and reiki. Let the energy flow and it will go where it needs to. Hard to let go sometimes though, old habits come up and I catch myself trying to change or ‘fix’ someone or something.
What got me thinking about this was that instead of looking at something big like family issues in my recap today I decided to look at driving. I am 35 and I am just really starting. Partly of course I had a bike for years and it was all I needed in a city and also Irelands heavy Insurance/car tax but they are just excuses to me not getting my own car and starting to drive. I realised it was down to the same old chestnut of me not feeling up to situations that might arise. Future dread. Possibilities of failure. Of course when I do get behind a wheel and drive I am very calm and sorted and well capable and I feel amazing after having done it. I just need practise. I have to demand and insist I drive to get past the block, instead of what I have done in the past of just letting others drive.
I saw a cool ford escort today. I might look at another tomorrow morning but I reckon its going to be one of those two. !!
exciting!
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thank you for this post, it helped me calm down and not get so upset over the crap lifes been giving me lately. btw i think you should go with the toyota, fords are crap.
Ditto on the wisdom in your post….it allowed me to take a deep breath and revisit some challenging projects I’ve hidden in a drawer lately….
Re: the car: If it is of any help at all… in 1997 I bought a used,1971 Corolla and it was still going strong! My biggest expense on that little beastie was a set of new tires in 2000 (the car still had the original tires on it when I bought it!).
When I sold it a few years later (due to a move) it was still merrily chirping along…….
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